Now that medication peels away the layer of anxiety and emotional crashes I had as an ambient background, the effects of my work come in much starker view. There's a paper deadline on Friday. I am first author on an interesting result, for a conference none of us are used to writing for.
And the tasks I have grabbed onto require me to learn a number of professional tools I have never before touched in my life.
Yesterday and today had anxiety pangs hovering just under the surface. Friday is the paper deadline. Saturday I'm declaring an extended holiday with no work whatsoever until … oh, at least Monday or so.