Sunday, 18 January 2015

Just because…

…I'm responding to my Lamictal doesn't mean I'm not actually ill.
…things feel horrible right at this moment doesn't mean they will forever.
…I know what I'm supposed to be doing (weight loss, self care, et.c.) doesn't mean it's trivial to do that.
…I'm ill doesn't mean I'm not also stressed.
…I'm stressed doesn't mean I'm not also ill.
…I'm procrastinating doesn't mean I don't get work done.
…I love my work doesn't mean it is the only thing that defines me.
…the last thing I heard before crashing was you doesn't mean that what you said made me crash.
…there were things that needed doing doesn't mean my emotional crash is an attempt to get out of doing them.

Some of these it has taken me years to realize.
Some of them I still haven't quite accepted.